Brain Vomit #44

If I don’t force myself to start writing, I’m not gonna do it. It’s easy to see all the work I have to do and say “I’m too busy to write a blog post.” There’s no financial incentive to sit down and write, especially when I have a ton of work to do. Time is limited and in comparison to real work, writing seems like a waste of time. The truth is that I need it. Say what I want to say or just sit in front of my computer for a couple of minutes till something comes out. Sometimes by force, pushing my fingers so deep into the throat of my intellect till a thought worth thinking comes out. Keeps my mind engaged and helps me to make my own thoughts. It’s an exercise and the more I do it the better I get at it. Though I feel I have a very long way till I write something good.

One of the reasons why I stopped blogging was because people started reading them. Which is kind of Ironic. Why would I write something for everyone to read if I don’t want them to read it? I feel like this is the only platform on the internet that I can control and I should use it. Sitting down and writing in a journal sounds a lot less productive to me than writing a blog post. This way at least I am making content! But also I want the people reading my post or engaging with my brand that a real person is behind all this. Not a faceless corporation but a human being. A human benign with a voice and conflicting ideas. I don’t even agree with myself sometimes. How am I supposed to agree with everyone? I’m just doing the best I can to not be a hypocrite and be part of the solution that will give the world a chance for a better future. Most of the time trying to figure out what the best solution would be. I'm exhausted.

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